I've been unable to even comprehend blogging in the last many weeks. Things are flying by and it's hard not to get swept up, up and away. I suppose working in news media means that when it's a busy news time, not a lot else matters. You've got to be across everything.
I've been thinking a lot lately about what your early 20s is meant to be about. My housemate and I were just discussing in our dainty kitchen about the importance of defining yourself as SOMETHING. You know it's not just Tess- Happy Person, it's gotta be Tess- Producer, Tess- Host, Tess- SOMETHING. You need to have things in your life that you aspire to and that are just yours. They're not your friends aspirations, they're not your boyfriends passions, they aren't your families labels. They are just yours. What you want to think of yourself as.
In your first years in the workplace, you're just soaking everything in. You're trying to work out when's an appropriate time to think about what YOU want and what you need to get out of a place and of the people around you. But you work so hard with so much energy and positivity it's becoming difficult to find time to sit back and think about those things. Times when you're not on the go, times when you aren't on your way to something, somewhere. Tonight after one hell of a day, a loss in our work netball and a week of illness when my car decided not to work and I had to walk home in the dark with arms full of things and a mind full of chattering thoughts was one of those times.
Your early 20s must flash by I'm sure as the weeks go so quickly and before you know it you're overwhelmed and blogging about... well you're not even sure what the point of the typing is. But sometimes you find those small moments to just think ME.ME.ME What do I want, what do I think and where do I want to be and these are some of the most refreshing moments you can have.
I will return now to my bed to read and listen to PUTA MADRE BROTHERS who make me feel free, happy and reckless... before I wake up and do it all again, tomorrow.
