Thanks again Thom

What will grow crooked, you can't make straight
It's the price that you gotta pay
Do yourself a favour and pack your bags
Buy a ticket and get on the train
Buy a ticket and get on the train

Cause this is fucked up, fucked up
Cause this is fucked up, fucked up

People get crushed like biscuit crumbs
And lay down in the bitumen
You have tried your best to please everyone
But it just isn't happenin
No, it just isn't happenin

And that is fucked up, fucked up
And this is fucked up, fucked up
This your blind spot, blind spot
It should be obvious, but it's not.
But it isn't, but it isn't

You cannot kickstart a dead horse
You just crush yourself and walk away
I don't care what the future holds
'Cause I'm right in your arms today
With your fingers you can touch me

I am your black swan, black swan
But I made it to the top, but I made it to the top
And this is fucked up, fucked up

You are fucked up, fucked up
This is fucked up, fucked up

Be your black swan, black swan
I'm for spare parts, broken up

Breathe with me

So much goes on in such short windows of time! It's lucky people don't necessarily blog daily because nothing would really ever change! I have the best thing going on at the moment. Such a good existence!

I'm really lucky to have fallen into the friendship groups, the family groups and the relationships that I have. I only spend quality time with people I think are quality, and the people I meet and talk with on the peripherals excite me constantly because I'm being introducted to friends of friends who are usually guaranteed to be kind of cool at least.

The radio quest is going well I would think, the only thing is the fact that I'm in a little bit of limbo at the moment having finished a degree, having a show which is gaining success on community radio and being unable to decide on what to do next. I think most people would find themselves at this point. Things are so perfect socially right here, but I need to move away! But when do I move??! And what'll happen to all of these connections that I have that are so positive right now. It makes reaching a decision a slightly difficult quest.

Our great topdeck friends we made in Europe have just come down for a week and Georgia and I were discussing the age old debateyou know about how fantastic it is to be successful career wise, but what is more important in life? Reaching goals professionally, or creating meaningful relationships and really experiencing and fully embracing love and all that comes with that? Who knows I suppose, if you could get the balance right, things would be pretty sweet!

For now, I need to research my show for this week. Will post again my undecided thoughts in regards to my unplanned life asap!
T xx

Proper.

When I go, i think i'm gonna sew my name into all of your clothes my girl, since you have always worn me well.
And there are too many animals on this ship, some of you i think will have to sink but when it gets too much, you can only adjust

Oh i am always thinking about you and how you always wear me well, you can't outgrow something sewn under your skin so i will always wear you well.

And sunday evening always has this sense of something good about to end i know we hold our breaths for tomorrow, and i think im gonna write my name into all the books you love so well, since you can read me good my girl yeah you can always read me well.

Try and rationalise a thing you've never seen before you can wear me well, you can wear me well id suit myself, but its one that ive never worn

If theres only one truth that i know, its that the stitches that we've made are the best i've ever sewn.

Perhaps there is Josh Pyke out there for each of us? Proper affection and no fear of it!

One free woman!

I don't know why nobody told you how to unfold your love/ I don't know how someone controlled you/ They bought you and sold you/I look at the world and see that it's turning.

As the beatles themselves would say, I am as free as a bird. Free of uni that is! Which is a wonderful thing as I had really reached the end of the line in regards to essay writing capabilities and assignment handing in worries. No exams, all assignments in, nothing else I can do. Now I can just enjoy myself. Hang out with people when I want to, go out and not have to spend the time where I'm not working home-working, concentrate on my radio show and save some cash for the big smoke. This time is so exciting for me and I'm really feeling positive about my abilities and less self crucifying and that this upcoming period of months are going to bring fantastic things.

One of them will be christmas which I will be in the country for, OH YEAH. Here is a special christmas treat from David Bowie & Bing Crosby


I went to see the Preytells up in Melbourne two weeks ago- AWESOME. Such a good show, and so lucky to be able to get up there in the end. I like doing things on a whim and it's rare that people ever really do it with you, so if you can find a wingman all is well, and all was well for me! It's been an interesting time for meeting new people and forming new relationships at the moment. I've met loads of new people, some just through the show or the pulse and some through friends and some completely out of the blue. All of which have bought only good things so far which is nice, but it's sometimes hard to tell what people want from you. It may be a cynical view, but if someone is not clear about their intentions or their desires for your friendship or relationship it's hard not to feel curious about what they think of you and how they feel you fit into their life. All will soon be revealed I suppose, and perhaps the mystery is more interesting than the revelation?

Radio show, check. Journalism at university, check. Overseas, check. Brilliant people around me, check. Things are going well.

T x

Woo.

Essay one down, three to go, then goodbye to uni forever. Fantastic.

Get onto this band, The Preytells they're absolutely fantastic and I will be heading up to Melbourne to see them this thursday night, great new Australian music- always a bonus.

http://www.myspace.com/thepreytells

Nineteen ninety

fairy bread, gumby, bangers and mash, cheez tv, mario kart/party/goldeneye 64, don't push me push a push pop, who shot mister burns conspiracy theories, "that's so funny, I forgot to laugh", sizzler, lone star, marbles, mood rings, fairy parties, power rangers, kiss chasey, gladiators and their tazos, mortal kombat, hey dad!, doom, napster, polly pocket, plugger, zoopadoopas, opposite day, forty-forty, cottees ad, good on ya mum tip tops the one, choose your own scare, magic eye 3d pictures in the weekend paper magazine, alex mac and her secret world, genie from down under, round the twist, sprinklers, trampoline cricket, slap bracelets, hey football head!, rugrats, reading harry for the first time, writing letters, world4kids, pizza hut kidsworks, what are we going to do tomorrow- we'll do what we always do and try to take over the world!, doctor dreadful food lab, heads down thumbs up, healthy harold the giraffe and the van, downball, elimination, mercia vs st bernards in footy, dad at geelong and our busses to games, amazing, who dares wins FIFTY DOLLARS.

I grew up in a really fun decade.

Just about to finish my holocaust essay and despite my grumblings and sinking feelings at all thoughts of tutorials/lectures/assignments/dso/readings/anything related to the actual subject I have learned much more than I have in many other history subjects. Particularly as I've always had a distinct interest in ww2, particular the horrors of the holocaust. For some reason I've just always been mindblown at the extent of genocide. Survivor Abel Herzberg was quoted as saying:

"There were not six million Jews murdered; there was one murder, six million times."

Of all the quotes, statistics, facts, figures, horror stories I've read those words had the most impact. Six million individual existences just vanished. One in two european jews completely eliminated. It's incomprehensible, but addictive once you begin to research individual stories. Also the stories of attempts at resistance such as the riots in the warsaw ghetto, the seventy odd escapees from treblinka concentration camp who were able to tell their friends what was going on in the camps, the french village Le Chambon-sur-Lignon who famously hid and saved the lives of five thousand jews, the Danish population refusing to comply with Nazi orders and relocating seven thousand jews to safety in Sweden. Oh there's so many stories, so little time to read them and so difficult to choose the best ones to explain in 3000 words how these people died.

Thanks to uni anyway for forcing me to choose subjects not media related I suppose to broaden my knowledge! Maybe... or maybe provide more journalism/industry related subjects so that I may actually get a media/journalism degree in the fairest way possible.

Off to write more history, watch more micallef show clips, listen to pulse.
Tess

Tess is in the gaarden,

Happy Tess. Things are so fantastic. Rory and I finally got our own radio show which begins tonight, I am listening to FANTASTIC new music, reading about history, went out for iced coffees with two completely different but brilliant in their own way women, sharpies soccer team WON last night, I only have a few weeks left of uni, the sun is shining, I'm moving to the big smoke next year, my life is starting, I'm fit well and healthy and young. Life's so good. There's always little hurdles to get over, and things to get over and mature and get past, but all in all, I'm in the best place to really make something of myself. So go everything.

Tess is happy and going to wallow in this joy, listen to more miike snow and read some slighty depressing stuff but still feel good!

Rumi

The other evening I met a little boy who was the most adorable thing in the world. I started chatting to his parents who were an extremely cool hippy duo all about global focus and all things awesome, and found out his name was Rumi after a 13th century poet. Very cool. I thought I'd look into this man, who was born in Afghanistan and a lot of scribblings are very religious based which is not so much my thing, but a lot of them are about love and knowledge.

Soul Recieves From Soul- Rumi

Soul receives from soul
that knowledge,
therefore not by book
nor from tongue.
If knowledge of mysteries
come after emptiness of mind,
that is illumination of heart.

How curious you are to me.

One evening as the sun went down and the jungle fire was burning
Down the track came a hobo hiking and he said boys I'm not turning
I'm headin for a land that's far away beside the crystal fountains
So come with me we'll go and see the Big Rock Candy Mountains

In the Big Rock Candy Mountains all the cops have wooden legs
And the bulldogs all have rubber teeth and the hens lay soft boiled eggs
The farmer's trees are full of fruit and the barns are full of hay
Oh, I'm bound to go where there ain't no snow
Where the rain don't fall and the wind don't blow
In the Big Rock Candy Mountain

Listening to old hilarious blues, just had a fresh drop dead fred watching experience, room's fairly clean (ish), reminiscing on a fantastic 2008, quilt, water, whitey, shaun micallef clips, life is sweet. Things are going so swimmingly for me. Someone mentioned this week we have a mere THREE WEEKS left of uni. EVER. Oh wow. I know. It's all very exciting. I've really reached the end of my essay writing/lecture dwelling (or not so much anymore) capabilities and am itching to be free of this university thing for good. I have been extremely lucky to have been able to study so many varied things from PR (ew though.), criminology, sociology (ew though.), journalism, media, history of the war, holocaust history, politics. I've loved it really and met the most incredible like-minded human beings which is always not only comforting but exciting. However, these uni gang members will be in my life from now on and I don't feel I need to cling onto this lifestyle of no cash and extra stress for any particular reason now. Bring on summer working hanging out party fun.

I've been reading Tess of the D'urbevilles and am really enjoying it regardless of Thomas Hardy's tendancy to use 1829 words when he could have just used one appropriate word. In spite of this, she is so very similar in her ideals to me. She's but a mere dairymaid, OR IS SHE?!

'Crowds of men and women attired in the usual costumes... How curious you are to me!'

Every now and then you're lucky enough to find someone that pops out of the masses. Lucky I am to have met so many, and excited about who might be the next addition into my circle. Oh I am feeling loose and jazzy fresh about everything.

Here's my Shaun Micallef hit for the evening, oh his voice. And Elton John I wouldn't lock the door from the other side.

Goodnight all.

Nobody knows it but me!

There was a time when my world was filled with darkness
And I stopped dreaming
Now I'm supposed to fill it up with something
In your eyes I see the eyes of somebody i knew before long ago
But I'm still trying to make my mind up
Am I free or am I tied up?

I change shapes just to hide in this place but I'm still, I'm still an animal!
Nobody knows it but me when i slip yeah i slip
I'm still an animal



It's all about the happy instrumental at 2:14

I am most definitely free. It's a fine lifestyle choice indeed.

Please, please, please let me get what I want.

Let me get what I want
This time
Havent had a dream in a long time
See, the life Ive had
Can make a good man bad


The past few weeks have been so intense. So many things, so many people, so many hasslers, so many plans, so many things. But tonight bowling with some fantastic women and having a proper laugh and being out and about has really refreshed me in general. This weekend I am 21! I'm quite excited now, a little nervous about the party factor but imagining the joy of having everyone I like/love in the same room- that's a cool thing. Also I think our radio/domination/spectacular kicks off next week. A new age, nice hair, new people around, new beginning. Next year will be so unusual, but I'm trying to crawl out from own mind for a little while so I'm not going to think about it too much.

This will brighten a day, a Disney christmas card in August
Check out more cool vintage cartoons of all varieties at http://www.animationarchive.org/

I'm going to stop listening to the Smiths and keep reading Tess of the D'ubervilles, it's the book I am named after so I thought it was appropriate to read it. Perhaps it's just because I know that I was named from it, but I feel strangely connected to Tess. And really wanting good to come for her, but she is having a terrible run thus far. But keeping a wonderful attitude and keeps trying, so perhaps she is someone to be admired.

Tess (not Durbeyfield though) out for now.

Mapped by what surrounded them.

A few years ago my family all completed the typelogic test. It is designed to properly analyse you based on questions about you in social, work or personal related situations. Three years and I'm still the same, which is comforting! I am still ENFP (extraverted, intuitive, feeling, perceiving) or a 'Champion Idealist'.

If you would like to take the test, go to http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

The results really are extremely insightful and range from telling you the sort of person you are in regards to relationships, work or social situations. It also tells you jobs that suit you, and points out some well known flaws of this personality type and some strengths and benefits and makes note of famous ENFPs (or whatever your type might be).

The jobs it recommends for my type were not surprising to me at all. They were journalism first, psychology, recreation specialist (what is this job and how do I get it?), acting, writing, musician or marketing. None of this surprised me and all of which have been options or thoughts of mine in the past anyway.

This part of the blog might not interest you unless you are interested in my personality, in which case read on. These are just a few points of the analysis I found the most intruiging.

• Champions are rather rare, say two or three percent of the population
• They see life as an exciting drama, pregnant with possibilities for both good and evil, and they want to experience all the meaningful events and fascinating people in the world
• Champions can be tireless in talking with others, like fountains that bubble and splash, spilling over their own words to get it all out.
• Champions are keen and probing observers of the people around them, and are capable of intense concentration on another individual.
• Champions are positive, exuberant people, and often their confidence in the goodness of life and of human nature makes good things happen.
• As mates they are warm, affectionate and disconcertingly spontaneous. However, attention span in relationships can be short; ENFPs are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances.
• ENFPs often have strong, if unconvential, convictions on various issues related to their Cosmic View. They usually try to use their social skills and contacts to persuade people gently of the rightness of these views.
• One study has shown that ENFPs are significantly overrepresented in psychodrama. Most have a natural propensity for role-playing and acting.
• ENFPs like to tell funny stories, especially about their friends. This penchant may be why many are attracted to journalism.
• ENFPs are energized by being around people. Some have real difficulty being alone , especially on a regular basis.

Anyway, I just found those things to be of interest. Perhaps outwardly confident people do tend to get themselves into situations where they can easily act or role play rather than be themselves if they're worried that themself is not yet adequete. Who knows! However I really enjoy the insight into my person that the typeology analysis has given me so perhaps you will too.

I'm currently analysing television current affairs, and feeling very sad about the state of "current affairs" our country has to offer, which is very minimal and very limited to channels ABC and SBS. At least we have those, I suppose. I've had a wonderful weekend of no toxins, lots of socialising, lots of being lone wolf and a little bit of work. It's been pretty darn good and this week is a lot less hectic and full on as the last so I'm looking forward to what it has to offer. Things are just that good at the moment, however with only six weeks left of uni I'm starting to feel a little apprehensive about the end of this era. I can only enjoy the end and deal with the new stuff when it comes about I suppose.

Enjoy this musical treat from the 2008 album Eulogy of Evolution by Olafur Arnalds, who is from One Little Indian Records like Bjork and Sigur Ros. This video clip is enough to put anyone at peace, it is really beautiful :)

would like a backyard house party, stat.

mass media + fresh romance = scatterbrain

"It was one in the morning, a wind had risen and something curious too had happened; as if everyone in the city, simultaneously, had become sick of news of any kind; for thousands of newspaper pages blew through the small park on the way crosstown, blundered like pale bats against the trees, tangled themselves around the feet of Rooney and Rachel, and of a bum sleeping across the way. Millions of unread and useless words had come to a kind of life in Sheridan Square; while the two on the bench wove cross-talk of their own, oblivious, among them."

Happy.

Oh Thom, I love you and your video clips and your songs and your son's taste in cartoons and their influence on your videos.



Party, bonus.

Why so green and lonely?

In pitch dark i go walking in your landscape. Broken branches trip me as i speak. Just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there. There's always a siren singing you to shipwreck. Don't reach out. Steer away from these rocks, we'd be a walking disaster. Don't reach out!

I'm really starting to enjoy my attitude to life, it's something I think I take for granted. I don't ever imagine that there's something I CANNOT do or any of my list of goals that I couldn't possibly achieve, because why not? What is holding me back? There's nothing about me that makes me any less able than anyone who HAS made it! It's always refreshing to look at things this way. I mean this with no disrespect for their beliefs but the church near my house has a sign that says Time is Short, Eternity is Endless.

NOT EVEN! I think this is the wrong message to throw out there, unless you are trying to encourage people to waste the very short time each human being really has to live. You really do only get one shot, so if you got to the end of it all and you hadn't at least had a go at what you really wanted, or hung out with people you actually enjoyed the company of, or acted on a whim or just went with the flow, it's hard to think you wouldn't feel disappointed with what you had achieved (or hadn't in this case). Life is short and sweet with most delightful occurances, and some not so delightful ones happening all the time. It's exciting people, but needs to be made the most of and enjoyed!

:)

To forget or not to forget?

The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned.

I would never choose to forget, because once the appropriate amount of time has passed you just have lovely memories and an understanding of how you have turned out the way you have. It's an interesting thought though to try and pick things that have happened that you would block out of your memory completely, I have a couple but they're not so bad when I think about not ever remembering them again, if that makes any sense at all!

I love Shaun Micallef too much, this is amazingly funny




It turns out I now have to blog for uni as well, that will be in relation to the actual course content but should anything actually interesting pop up I will be sure to put it in this blog as well. Surely something of interest will come up through this semester of pain. I'm on the home stretch of my university career and i'm finding it an intense amount of effort to get into it, I have absolutely no interest in going, except that the uni gang are there. Imagine if I had no uni pals, how difficult things would be then. Life is just too sweet at the moment, and it feels as though the hours that I'm in the lectures or tutes are just taking up precious time I could be using to actually do things. I now have all the skills and knowledge I needed from the course and am ready to take on the real world, but HOW? If only there were a class that would tell you exactly how to get what you want and become a legend at life, stat. Shaun Micallef would surely be the head of the department.

your confusion, my illusion

Oh joy! Almost a month since I blogged last which seems to have been no time at all. It's crazy how fast the weeks are flying by. I've had a long winded uni holiday, met lots of new people, started a new thing at the radio station, holiday-ed to Brisbane to catch up with disciples and returned to uni and it feels like no time has passed. If it is indeed the case that time flies whilst having fun, then it's ringing true for me.

Loads of great things are happening for me at the moment, and I'm going to put it down to a positive attitude, a clean slate, taking chances when they're given to me and spontaneity. It's great when you take a chance on something that could either be a flop or may open up a new exciting aspect to your life. I have a new, slight sense of self confidence but it's along the lines of Bill Murray's lovely compliment in lost in translation, You're Not Hopeless.

In order to show off Australia's incredibly talented indigenous folk we should start with this man and this song.



Gurrumul Yunupingu who has been blind since birth plays the guitar and has a voice that is completely haunting and absolutely enthralling. It's beautiful stuff and authentic Australian music that should be celebrated!

With thoughts of lovely music, blackbooks, shaun micallef, tea and money making tomorrow, I shall retire but I will return sooner than the last break! And hopefully feeling as wonderful as I do now.
T x

Parade around down town

Listening to a lot of beach boys and having visions of road trips and romance. Ahh. Still Cruisin' is an exceptional song.

I had a wonderful weekend, have copius dates with all sorts of people this week and am busy being a social butterfly, a little bit of work and a lot of play. New hair new purchases, oh lovely. Brisbane disciples reunion (minus chloe) next week will be brilliant, and I cannot wait to be getting on a plane and going SOMEWHERE. Oh joy!

Enjoy the beach boys people, and have a wonderful night.

So come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose
So come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose
So come on

Now get yourself in gear
Oh baby come on
Still cruisin' after all of these years
Hey girl let's go for a spin
Hop in my hot rod and do it again

You've got a greenhouse effect on me
I know a secret spot
Paradise by the sea
We'll find a place to park
That's kinda cool after dark

We'll take a trip on up to the lake
Down by the river
Where we can make out
On the island

Wake up on the cape
Punch up yor favorite staion
Toss in your favorite tape
When we go cruisin'
Well everything is all right

Come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose
Baby when we go cruisin' now

Baby put your top down
Parade around down town
People trying to cool down
Party all summer long

Come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose
So come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose
Baby come on

Now get yourself in gear
Baby baby come on
Still cruisin' after all of these years

Everybody got a favorite spot
Where they like to come a lot

When we go cruisin' Well everything is all right

Come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose
Baby when we go crusin' now

People dancin' in the sand
Rockin' to a reggae band
Lovers walkin' hand in hand
Party all summer long

Come on let's cruise ya got nothin' to lose

Peppermint tea, sims. Baby, come on.

Life is for the living!

Everything is going just swell. The pendulum of happiness is swinging on the happy side! I have the greatest of friends, a fun casual job, i'm on holidays, I am ridiculously happy at home with my family, I'll be happy again in a few weeks when I'm back at uni anyway, heading to Brisbane, huge possibilities happening at the station after taking a step towards being someone and I'm actually learning how to sleep! The last couple of days have been wow-ee moments as Aldog would say. And with an op shop formal party, house warmings, 30ths, interstate trip, lots more work experience, money money, waynes world night, apollo bay and lots of hanging out, there shall be wow-ee moments plentiful in the next few weeks as well.

It's strange I have admiration type crushes on certain people. I don't know them? But they're just people that I like, that have done very well for themselves and that I'd be spiffed to meet. They strike a chord with me, their music does or their values do. The polaroid images come from www.portroids.com which is a brilliant photography project that's been going on for years which is a mixture of average joes and "somebodys" who must sign their polaroid before it's been developed. Check it out :)

Helena Bonham Carter- Brigette & I's crush and future friend. She and partner Tim Burton did a photoshoot for Vera Wang which is where the cool Corpse Bride-esque shot comes from. Wow they'd be a great couple to third wheel.




A bit of a relapse into some sadsack form and some nasty habits have shaken me into concentrating on making something of myself and my youth! It's something I think I have taken for granted, as everybody does, and through speaking with so many eldery people all the time, their best memories are always of the things they did when they were young. All of the things I worry about are challenges I will have to face in the future regardless of choices I make now so I just have to stop living in the future and start living in the now. Life is for the living as Greg said on air yesterday and it's never been more true.

How many times have you heard someone say
If I had his money I'd do things my way
Hmm, but little they know
Hmm, it's so hard to find
One rich man in ten with a satisfied mind.

Hmm, once I was wadding in fortune and fame
Everything that I dreamed of to get a start in lifes game
But suddenly it happened
Hmm, I lost every dime
But I'm richer by far with a satisfied mind.

Hmm, when my life is over and my time has run out
My friends and my love ones
I'll leave there ain't no doubt
But one thing for certain
When it comes my time
I'll leave this old world with a satisfied mind.

This just in... go to hell.

I love Kent Brockman, what an inspiration to all budding television journalists ( ha ha)

Tame Impala's new song is brilliant, it's called Sundown Syndrome check it out at their myspace http://www.myspace.com/tameimpala

Also if you don't already listen to them on a regular basis please do so with the Friendly Fires, they are rockin. I'm so over being sick, although it is a conversation starter at my work with all the customers. Despite illness work is fun as usual. One told me I looked lovely even though I clearly didn't sound it ha, an old man said I had a pretty face (thanks champ), I chatted Europe for ages with one fella about how this cold is NOTHING compared to the european winters which is true, found out one customer is a wildlife photographer in Africa and next year South America and realised one old man is an ex-adventurer and has had the COOLEST existance. Beautiful old scottish lady and I had the same conversation we have every week, "Hello, How are you?", "Oh love... I'm pretty good for an old duck." "That's good!" "Gotta just put my feet on the floor and then I'm right for someone over the big Eight Zero" "Well you're doing VERY well for yourself."

Love it. Everybody has a story! After this health issue leaves my system however all the gang will be finished exams and we will be having non stop, ridiculous amounts of fun. I will be visiting the disciples, keeping at it with the work experience and actually earning money. It'll be a sweeeet couple of months.

I just want to cuddle and protect Moss here from the bullies he's so hilariously awkward, and his crying is like mine last week so I can laugh AND relate, bonus!

"Dem glassez is shit iznt it!?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8l4r10MOH70

Heartbeat

Tess is a fan of semester one being over. What a week. Far out, I couldn't get out of bed this morning, but for the first time in a long while I did not have to. From the Pulse to uni to the newsagents to being up until 2 every morning and awake at 7 to finish ridiculous amounts of assignments I should always have done earlier to an evil wench of a woman crushing my confidence. Not one of my finest hours (or seven days worth of hours).

It's strange that people feel they have the right to make cruel and unnecessary judgements of people they don't know the first thing about. What. A bitter, old woman morphed into all of my weak spots. I suppose it was good in a way as I had a lot of tension from the last few months that I hadn't dealt with or worried about and it gave me a chance to rid myself of all that. Like Frou Frou would say LET GO. Let go, what are you waiting for? It feels good.

Four major assignments, four days, it feels so good to not have that worry, I can do whatever I want, and then one more semester and I can REALLY do whatever I want, for good! Wow.

Oh Charles Hardin (Buddy) Holly. His songs are so sweet. Proper crushes and adoring of other people and happy, fun, uncomplicated love. Oh, what a world. There are so many songs about heartbeats, it's a strange thing that this organ can make you feel a ridiculous amount of things. It can be pangs of pain or when it quickens with excitement, or when you push your body to the limits. It's an awesome (in terms of the actual definition) pink big mass of stuff.

Buddy Holly:

Heartbeat, why do you miss when my baby kisses me? Piddle dee pat - I know that new love thrills me.I know that true love will be. Heartbeat - why do you skip when my baby's lips meet mine. Sing to me love stories and bring to me love’s glories.

The Knife/Jose Gonzalez:

One night of magic rush, the start a simple touch. One night to push and scream, and then relief. Ten days of perfect tunes, the colours red & blue. We had a promise made, we were in love.

Robyn:

So I don't look back. Still I'm dying with every step I take. But I don't look back, just a little little bit better. And it hurts with every heartbeat.

So I've gone From Jose to Robyn, and I want some Buddy thoughts! It seems that at this age, that will be the adventures of most of our romantic lives. The excitement and thrill of a connection with someone, the task of getting over it and moving on and leaving that part of your life behind, and then comes the excitement of the next time you feel that way for somebody. Which is the coolest of all the three. It's all going to happen again and again, fairly funny I suppose.

New gloves, new beret, new vest, new dresses, new perspectives. Breakfast with the lovely Amy, lunch with my family and grandmother Mae who is the most remarkable person I know, then tuesday we'll get our movie on. Life's sweet.

Listening to: Damon Albarn & Scratch- Too late, very very cool song.
Reading: New Moon... I have to.
Watching: It's going to be Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

T

Really?!

Really?! Really life? Is it okay that a festival of this wonder is happening in three weeks, and I'm not there, nor am I going, or would be capable of going. Best music festival in the world has lived up to its reputation.

ECHO AND THE BUNNYMEN, Blur, Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds, Madness, Tom Jones, Status Quo, Prodigy, Bon Iver, Neil Young, Lily Allen, Fleet Foxes, Bloc Party, LadyHawke, Friendly Fires, White Lies, The Rakes, The Streets, Rolf Harris, Animal Collective, The Horrors, Crookers, Bruce Springsteen & The E Street Band, Kasabian, Seun Kuti and Fela's Egypt 80, Crosby Stills & Nash, Dizzee Rascal, Spinal Tap, Franz Ferdinand, Paolo Nutini, Pete Doherty, Peter, Bjorn and John, Gaslight Anthem, The Temper Trap, Jamie Cullum, Wombats, 2ManyDJs, Cold War Kids, Peaches.

As Kyle so nicely put it "It's like my ipod has come to life."

LAME. That would be the most fun, however I cannot complain that my own little narrative is going badly because it's not. Things are awesome.

I've spent the whole week getting completely motivated about life in general, this age and making the most of stuff. People go through much much worse than what I'm going through, and dealing with emotions and love and sadness and stress and anxiety and self esteem is all part of growing up which I clearly will never stop doing. People will always be growing and learning, and if I dwell for too long on feeling lonely or wanting something to happen, nothing will happen and I will turn back and realise I wasted so much time wanting, and not enough time DOING. I know what I'm about, what I like and what I'm not really into, I have awesome jam packed weeks and I'm busy all the time but I wouldn't have things any other way.

Feeling absolutely fantastic, new music, new people popping in and out, catching up with people after a while, next week after the rush of assignments I will be finished uni for the semester no exams and the chance to make a stack of money and head to brisbane to see some of our favourite people. Things couldn't get much better... unless "knock. knock"

Tess signing out with severe pangs of disappointment that she's not on the way to the glastonbury festival.

Nozin' Around

Funny funny skit from the young ones ft Roland Percival and his amazing moves



That doesn't mean I want you to seduce my parrot!?

i have two colours in my head.

Freedom, clean slate, new job, confidence boosting journalism marks, fit fit, meeting new people, parties, comfortable but not in a rut, soon to be new hair which will be a totally new look! This year will be an interesting one in terms of that I don't know where I'll be location wise or personally throughout it or at the end of it. Last year was a year of fun and moving on to a new part of my life in which I'm a lone ranger and independent rather than an extension of anyone else's life and this year will hopefully be an extension of that, where I have the rare chance to be selfish myself and now that I've altered my mind set about that, it is pretty damn cool.

Hello to accessories for 70% off, I'm so there. Hello to nerd, bed, comfy day. Hello to sunday night games.



Uni posse member Emma showed me this website which produces a ridiculous amount of laughs

http://awkwardfamilyphotos.com

In Limbo

Lundy, Fastnet, Irish Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read

Being the first in the Irish Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read

I'm on your side
Nowhere to hide
Trapdoors that open
I spiral down

You're living in a fantasy world
You're living in a fantasy world

I'm lost at sea
Don't bother me
I've lost my way
I've lost my way

You're living in a fantasy world
You're living in a fantasy world
You're living in a fantasy world
This beautiful world

Lundy, Fastnet, Irish Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read

Oh yeah, baby.

Today was SO good. I had so much fun this morning at the job, and came out with already much more experience, constructive criticism about how to best work my voice, meeting new people and learning new things about what goes on in our town, and clarification that I am most definitely on the right track. Yes! Then uni, then wii, then cooking, then quizzing, then a show about the economic crisis and how my main man Barack could fix it.

The list: Geoffrey Rush, Will Smith, Barack & Michelle Obama, Audrey Hepburn, Michael J Fox, Muhamed Ali, Shaun Micalef, Nick Cave.

Obama's so cool, but has the worst situation to kick start off. This could be wonderful in that if he really can turn it around and bring the country back from the brink of failure. However the Republicans acted so incredibly selfishly and irresponsibly, and Bush did not listen to any of the advice he was given in regards to the amount of money spent on the War and Health Care that the country literally has no money at all. So how does the coolest person in the world fix the problem in the world that risks everything for everybody else?! Go the good thing though.

He worked in Baskin Robbins, he lived in Indonesia with a pet ape, he loves scrabble, he gave the queen an iPod with musical songs on it, he's won a grammy award, written a book, his dad was an athiest yet he's come to his own opinions. Cool as.

You can only hope that you go about your own life, your own career and your own day to day existance with a similar amount of honesty and respect and enthusiasm.

Did you know that Jimi Hendrix was thrown out of high school for holding the hand of a white girl in class? And that Eric Clapton was born to an unwed mother so to shield him from the shame, he grew up believing that his grandparents were his parents and his mother was his sister.

fee fi fo fum

TALK. To me.

Top Five Reasons I feel fiiine today!

1. My friends are too good, checking the thread for updates about our ever exciting lives, hanging out for cups of tea, playing wii, getting through uni, saturday night lives.

2. I'm assignment/presentation free for a few weeks

3. I start a new and super exciting job in the morning.

4. I have a new laptop and a nintendo wii to fill in the time when I'm home sweet home

5. I have three books lined up to read, and no uni reading to intefere with them

Hearing many problems of late and so many of them come down to communication errors. People need to learn how to communicate better, or communicate full stop.You don't need to communicate with people you don't think are worth your time, toxic people, who needs them? So you just concentrate your energies on people you want to see and want to talk to, and that have mutual respect for you and will contact you and make an effort. I'm surrounded by these people, so who could complain?

Independence

It's strange how a situation comes about and you just assume. You just assume things will swing a certain way. It is really difficult to change your mindset once you have already plotted out these situations in your head. However it's really important when you are faced with underwhelming and different circumstances to accept that's just how life goes.

Things don't always turn out the way you had hoped, people change, feelings fade and you just have to go on with your own stuff. You have to keep developing your own life, your own friends, your own family, filling in your time and then anything or anyone that comes into your life is just a bonus to the great stuff you've already got. I'm a lucky person to be surrounded by simply awesome people to hang out, to play soccer with and eat indian with, to hang out at uni with, to plan trips with, to have uni dates with, to have panache and third wheel with, to work with, to go to the footy with, to go to gigs with, to dance with when out, to reminice with, to have cups of tea with and complain about the lack of Edward Cullens that actually exist, to make fondue men and eat their face. I'm surrounded by perfect human beings, who each don't think they're perfect, but are perfect to me and for me.

Home alone with red wine, greys anatomy, some dark chocolate, ladybird socks, clean and fresh. Mum and Dad away celebrating 30 years of marriage. Very proud, I've been brought up in an environment where I know people really can be happy. You can have issues but you can be happy long term, you just have to accept that you might not have found the right person yet, you might not find the right person, but it's possible. It's good to have gone through experiences where you really get comfortable with someone, and then it's changed, your friendship group needs to change, you lose your extended family and your lifestyle. But on the flip side, when your priorities change, you get the chance to think about yourself. You can stop putting others before you all the time, think about where you're headed, what you're about and figure out your place in this thing. I'm fine with the way things are, I'm used to my own company and my own life. This is the base block so anything else that is thrown my way I'll be pretty keen to deal with it and manouvre it into my life somehow.

You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around.

T x

Haïti, never free

A million of your friends are now fans of Not Being On Fire.

Seriously people?! Do we need to state our every single thought and like and what we hope won't happen in the future? Hahaha it's ridiculous. Fan sites are like a cancer growing unnecessarily and unexpectedly all over facespace.

Lately, there's been a lot of random add-age, but not particularly random which is even almost worse. People that I've heard of and know by face, but don't know in reality, or have never met. And often I take a chance and add them and leave them a comment or something, and there's no communications? I just don't get that, in reality it is a perfect chance to make a friend or at least learn something new about someone. It's a social networking website, about better-ing communications which is some ways it does really well as it's easy to talk to people about nerve wracking things via it. But if people add you that wouldn't say Hi on the street, then you're not making any type of relationship so it's a pointless portal of communication if you aren't planning on using it. It does make spying on people's lives a lot easier though...

Hello 94.7, Tess speaking. I have made a ridiculous amount of lists this week of things I need to remember to do, and set my alarm early so I can fit all of this stuff into my life. I think I just need to relax. I'm trying to avoid thinking in general terms about how I feel and whether these feelings have changed over time or whether I'm confused and just looking to fill in a bit of a void or what. I don't know, but every minute of every day is filled in doing SOMETHING. The daily jigsaw puzzle for example. I wish I could be comfortable doing nothing at all, but I really cannot do that. It just does my head in, and I think about all the other things I really should be doing with my time. It's spare time though, it's meant to be for doing nothing!

Oh life is so interesting and fun and our own personal drama show that we can alter. Pretty cool, incredibly frustrating, tears come for no reason and you learn a new moral about life after each episode!

could you make me happy?

I'm a nervous nelly about the meeting today, but this is the best possible step for me to actually do something with myself. There's nothing worse than sitting about just sailing through waiting for things to happen to you. So this will be good, it'll be the project I've been waiting for to come along and something to occupy any spare time I have which is GOOD.

Every now and then
I get a little too close
To a kind of truth that’s not worth thinking about

But you can’t stop the mind from wandering
You’ve gotta slow it down
Maybe get yourself under control

And it’s hard to stop the pondering
And there have been points when
I feel like I’ve been on a roll

But then those curtains get drawn
And the chances that you thought you had
They really come to nothing at all

And I have no need
For such things
But to make you happy
Does it make you happy?

And I’ve busted strings on this guitar
Makes me feel like I’m getting nowhere
Could you make me happy?

And if you keep me on your right
Could I keep you on my left?

And there’s a question on your lips
On your finger tips
Stabbing in the dark
Like you’re cut, cut,
Cutting your fringe back
But it’s grown out at such an angle
That the shears aren’t sharp
You’ve got to straight, straight,
Straighten the blades up

And if I could make it easier
I would always try to make it easier

But to be a cautious operator
Is the way to
Stop this falling apart

YES

Yes! I don't think misery does love company, I think once you get to a point of proper sadsack-ness, something always happens to give you a fork in the road for your thoughts. You could choose to continue to wallow which is easier and makes you feel better about your thoughts as it gives them reassurance, however you could take the positive and go down a whole new road of greatness.

Last night after finally finishing the wretched essay I got the best email about an opportunity i'd completely forgotten about, and with patience and sticking at it, we finally got the reply we want, a meeting on Tuesday morning, and a PROJECT. Which is exactly what I need. Today I did all my official type jobs with the banking and stuff, hung out with Brige, had a great big long drive which was well needed, had photos printed and am going out with the "A team" for a chocolate room date. Life is really going wonderfully as it is. I should appreciate what I have right now, which I've never had as good as I do now, and enjoy all the stuff that comes along with this, rather than thinking about anything else. Get your life together and get your project started and yourself on the right track for once stop overthinking things that may not even matter in six months or a years time, whereas where I'm going with a career and my interests WILL still matter.

No more before 9am drop offs of assignments, I'm too too tired.

boo hoo

Thank god for angel and her cups of teas and auntie kaths and ability to make me laugh.

Without this blog and facebook imagine how much actual essay writing I would get done, I would be a MACHINE! Someone help me. What am I going to do after this year, I finish uni for good in September, I need a project or someone telling me how to go about getting a kick ass job doing exactly what I want, with heaps of spare time haha. Does this exist? I doubt that. Hard work I'm sure will value me in some way or another. Can't wait for uni tomorrow to vent and to play soccer and get this all out of my system. Hellllooooo out there. Edward Cullen and McDreamy, damn you. Media law ethics has to be done and green tea needs to be drank- stat.

all this wears me out.

A green plastic watering can
For a fake chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth

That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself

It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns

He used to do surgery
On girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins

And it wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him out

She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love

But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run

And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out

And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time

i'm drunk up on your potion.

I today accidentally discovered a desperate-housewives style family secret about a regular from the newsagents, that I'm quite sure his family wouldn't even have known. It made the rest of my day much more interesting as each person I met I wondered what sort of things would come out if they had to tell something they'd never told anybody before. Everyone's got something. Everybody has a story. It's intriguing and I'm hoping to uncover many of these undiscovered stories by encouraging people to talk to me. How can I make this a career? FEATURE JOURNO. Yo.

Many things to rant about today including politics, dylan moran, money, differences of opinion and you know all that sort of thing. HOWEVER, I should stop this. I should continue to podcast and analyse a week's worth of current affairs radio on AM. They really do a great job, it's really a good reference to just find out what is happening in the world around us. Even their short snippets about the day's pieces would be a good idea for anyone who ever reads this to have a look at. BE AWARE of what is happening in the world people, politics or other, because it really does affect you, whether it's interesting or not. Which it is!

http://www.abc.net.au/am/

Oh Angus & your dreamy voice. Addictive, romantic, easy listening.

I bit my tongue in the awkward conversation.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
I met you once and I'd fallen for your notions.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
Do you believe that there's treasures in the ocean
Did I say I'm just a boy?
One kiss from you and I'm drunk up on your potion.

That big old smile is all you wore.
Girl you make me want to feel,
Things I've never felt before.
Girl you make me want to feel,
Did I say I'm just a boy,
Did I say I'm just a boy,
You can hold me to that.

No lonely hands grab my suitcase full of nothing
I don't know why
I don't know why
You took me in gave me something to believe in
That big old smile is all you wore
Girl you make me want to feel
Things I never felt before
Girl you make me want to feel
Did I say I'm just a boy
Did I say I'm just a boy
You can hold me to that

old school blink makes me happy

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh



I clearly need to make a trip down to my special spot and scream my heart out.

Dylan Moran tonight... Dylan I'm ready to laugh, do your best. I cannot wait to see him and just a comedy act in general, I need to lighten up at the moment, and let go! And be excited.

Listening to loads of current affair radio podcasts is not as interesting as a I had hoped, however is an awesome way to find out what's going on in the actual world, rather than reading the Herald Sun who are too swept up on a witch hunt of Terry Wallace over A GAME than to cover proper news. This will become my major issue working amongst the media. I actually have an understanding of the amount of pressure the media puts families that are involved in football under. I really feel for the coaching staff and their families, who we adore, because the playing group cannot stand up as men and prove themselves worthy to be playing in the top league, someone has to take the blame. Journalists like Wilson make ridiculous attacks on these men, with personal issues coming into play, and disregard any decency or courtesy in the way they go abut their job. WHAT WILL I DO? I just really hope I don't end up the same. I doubt that.

I don't know how those many years ago where I was a one man show, how I actually functioned without the friends I have now. No wonder I was the way I was, I'm so lucky and have the greatest people around me. Apollo bay ladies trip soon, Dylan Moran tonight, Erin's 21st on the weekend, Mill Markets on sunday, Journalism assignments almost out of the way. Things are good, just inner frustration needing to be screeched out, like in the movies yeah?

Garibaldi, you legend.

It's so interesting to read about historical figures that were SO completely sure of themselves and what they believed in. Giuseppi Garibaldi, referred to as a romantic nationalist, can be credited with the unification of Italy. He just believed that one province of Italy should be concerned about the welfare of others. That they were brothers and united by not only location, but language and culture. I like his style, you believe in something and what you want to get, and regardless of what's standing in your way (be it a history essay, facebook, blogging, monsters vs aliens OR napoleon and his french army) you just go and get it.

I am really finding it easy to research this essay, but increasingly difficult to write an essay on it, perhaps my essay writing days are drawing to an end. It's a pity I still have many a month of them ahead of me. I'll deal with it I suppose.

Next for us, vlogs. Youtube channel, podcasting. Rory and I will indeed somehow get what we want also. It will be an interesting month ahead of me, I'm excited and nervous and over so many things, and yet anticipating some events way too much. Thinking about what will happen. DYLAN MORAN! Hurrah, 21sts all over, girls night needing to be organised badly, my life plan needing to get back on track.

For now, I will deal with something well in the bounds of my control & write my history essay about Giussepe and his army of Red Shirts, who defied the norm and acted with conviction! I will listen to the ultimate hang out & relax playlist. Then I will go and see Monsters vs Aliens at the movies. Tomorrow I will do my essay, coffee break with angel, cook tea and Suppa Club with my best friends at Wixys. Life's good.

The Armstrong House for more than a hundred years- East Ballarat.

Beatles

You don't realise how much I need you.
Love you all the time and never leave you.
Please come on back to me.
I'm lonely as can be. I need you.

Said you had a thing or two to tell me.
How was I to know you would upset me?
I didn't realise as I looked in your eyes...
You told me.

Oh yes, you told me, you don't want my lovin' anymore.
That's when it hurt me.
And feeling like this, I just can't go on anymore.

Please remember how I feel about you, I could never really live without you.
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me.
I need you.

But when you told me, you don't want my lovin' anymore.
That's when it hurt me.
And feeling like this, I just can't go on anymore.
Please remember how I feel about you.
I could never really live without you.
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me.
I need you. I need you. I need you.
T, x

is blog. is good.

You change all the lead
sleepin' in my head to gold,
as the day grows dim,
I hear you sing a golden hymn,
the song I've been trying to sing.

Purify the colours, purify my mind.
Purify the colours, purify my mind,
and spread the ashes of the colours
Over this heart of mine!

Oh, life is so interesting! One day you just feel certainly one way and then within a few more something new and intriguing has happened and you feel completely different again. I'm just stuck trying to figure out where to go from here, opportunities come and go so quickly so perhaps I should stop worrying about other people and do what is best for numero uno. Because everyone else is looking out for themselves, so I shall to. At least not make plans that I worry about how they will affect others, if they will very much benefit me I should go for it.

As it's my last year of uni, I'm full of wonder about what I'll be doing next year & where I'll be. What sort of journalist do I even want to be? Do I want to present? But in doing that, I'll be unable to do opinion pieces which I love. And features which i'm all about. Perhaps magazine writing. But Radio! That's what I want. Now to get it. Reply to my emails Pulse!

VFEST this saturday, m83! The Human League! Killers! Duffy! Razorlight! Tame Impala! Temper Trap! Oh my. I love days such as this, when you have so many things to look forward to. And the ticket is paid for and i'm going with beautiful people, so things couldn't get much better.

Loving our lady posse at the moment, we have gathered a properly amazing group of women to hang out with, it's making me laugh a lot. Gossip thread! Uni hang outs.

ARCADE FIRE + where the wild things are = screaming out my name. Love it!

bookworming around

Tuesdays with Morrie wisdom:

`The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.

`Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say, ‘All right, that was my moment with loneliness. I’m not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I’m going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I’m going to experience them as well.

`By throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. … I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.

`Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else.

A Thousand Splendid Suns beauty:

`She was leaving the world as a woman who had loved and been loved back. She was leaving it as a friend, a companion, a guardian. A mother. A person of consequence at last. This was a legitimate end to a life of illegitimate belongings.

`One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs, or the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls.

`Boys, Laila came to see, treated friendship the way they treated the sun: its existence undisputed; its radiance best enjoyed, not beheld directly

The Kite Runner gold:

`For you... a thousand times over.

`And that's the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.

`She said, 'I'm so afraid.' And I said, 'why?,' and she said, 'Because I'm so profoundly happy, Dr. Rasul. Happiness like this is frightening.' I asked her why and she said, 'They only let you be this happy if they're preparing to take something from you.

The thing I love about reading is just trying to figure out how these characters that you become totally immersed in, will end up. What will happen to them? What will happen to you in your own story? These three books have just completely opened up my eyes to not only what's happening in Afghanistan or their history, or the thoughts of a lovely, clever man on his death bed, but just about stuff.

I enjoy new perspectives, and especially when it can be a perspective of a thousand miles away and you still relate to the feelings of those people, you still can imagine yourself in their shoes and dealing with those situations. The last two do make you realise how incredibly lucky you are to end up in the life that you have ended up in, in the body you're in, with the looks you have, with the family & friends that you have somehow managed to find a connection with, with a healthy mind & the interest of learning new things, with access to resources that enable you to do so.

Being born the person you are is not simply a blessing or an act of a higher power, it is luck and with your own faith about other humans and the world you are born into, it is YOUR life to mould and shape and make rules for. You make the rules for your own existence, you cannot read scriptures, or the word of someone you've never met and take it for Gospel, assuming that in a Modern age that occurrences that may or may not have happened thousands of years ago could possibly work in full, right now in the time we are living in.

Whether you're Catholic, Sunni or Shia Muslim, Protestant, Jew or just a curious person who wants to learn and debate things with themselves, then read Christopher Hitchen's 'God is Not Great', he is an incredible writer & debater and is so clever, and very very open minded and accepting of other people's beliefs, with the hope of others being accepting of him. Oh, what a wonderful world it would be!

I have to go watch the IT crowd and go to sleepies!

three- fiddy.

Bird & The Bee covering the Bee Gees = perfection.


I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show


I love uni, am so glad to be back there. Dani is home with us, hurrah! Manny is back on the roads, the best! Got up to Moonee Ponds, always my favourite. Go go everything.

lone wolf, at it again.

Perhaps it's the sweet scent of calvin klien, or polo blue or aqua di gio coming from somewhere over my body & bag, but I am feeling fine! Fine said with a lot of sass. Had a great day op shopping and real-dawdling shopping with angel, hi sushi, and bizarrely enough running into EVERY single person imaginable. It's crazy when you think of a person and then, bam! There they are. Perhaps I should put that to the test & try and make myself even happier. I am finally back to feeling cool about being a loner ha ha, it's good to be the only person on the planet that knows anything about you.

It's cool that every single person you meet will know something different about you, or feel differently towards you, because the next time you see that particular person you have a special connection just with them. PLUS I'm off to a movie with chloe, and I really love the movies. And Chloe, so this could only lead to wonderful things. PLUS my amazing blue shirt I bought today for TWO DOLLAR, it's beautiful. PLUS I have moose's 21st, work, funny hat cuppa club tomorrow, got paid more than i thought I would, a ticket to Vfest, a fresh head of hair, emma's birthday and out on sunday night, pub crawl next week, almost reunion with the uni gang & an incredible tale of jen's stalkerish acts towards nick, my sister's coming home from dublin in one week, the disciples are down from brisbane in April, I get to re-do an entire room next week and make it my own again, I have a great list of movie club movies that have watching to be done, a book list to get stuck into, new clothes & the impending cooler weather to look forward to.

Regardless of any little issue, things are pretty great & I should stop overthinking everything, and trying to be thoughtful and worry about the future or what will happen in two months, or six, or a year, because there's no way I could control that anyway, even if I attempted to, everything will be different even one week from now.

Life's good.


I want to think someone's beautiful,
That they're so beautiful it's a thrill to be near them.
Fill my stomach with butterflies,
have me floating on air,
Bring something out of me I didn't know was there.
But it's such a torturous thing
That I am not excited by anyone!

Amen Of Montreal!

Rockin' The Casbah

So many people telling me one way
So many people telling me to stay
Never had time to have my mind made up
Caught in a motion that I don't wanna stop

I'm baaack. I feel much better than my two-week-ago self. I feel much more settled & comfortable again, and things are getting back to normal, in the best possible normal way, not the mundane, lonely awkward one. There is so much stuff going on right about now, I am busy all the time and always doing something, and I love it.

Happiest of birthday wishes to Amy & Clare :) two of my most loyal and most hilarious companions.

It's so frustrating wanting to download a song but being completely unable to, Delphic where are you?! Wonderful band, supporting Bloc Party on tour at the moment, and their song Counterpoint is v. cool & listenable.

Monday's the meeting day, where the great ideas we have might actually be able to be put into action, and then it will be upwards from there for the show, all the way to total world (national) domination! cue evil laugh. I also will be donating blood in the afternoon, and trying to go through my cupboard and get rid of some clothes that I rarely wear anyway, as it's try & help out with the fires crisis in any, albeit small, way that you can. My sister will, if all goes to plan, be helping out there in a very very massive way, so it will be good to get involved with.

Watch Sia's film clip for Buttons, it's mesmerizing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uvd814WG2t4

Tess is going to finish Amy's birthday Box, get dolled up and go and have fun with the original gang.