three- fiddy.

Bird & The Bee covering the Bee Gees = perfection.


I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And its me you need to show

How deep is your love
I really need to learn
cause were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And its me you need to show


I love uni, am so glad to be back there. Dani is home with us, hurrah! Manny is back on the roads, the best! Got up to Moonee Ponds, always my favourite. Go go everything.

lone wolf, at it again.

Perhaps it's the sweet scent of calvin klien, or polo blue or aqua di gio coming from somewhere over my body & bag, but I am feeling fine! Fine said with a lot of sass. Had a great day op shopping and real-dawdling shopping with angel, hi sushi, and bizarrely enough running into EVERY single person imaginable. It's crazy when you think of a person and then, bam! There they are. Perhaps I should put that to the test & try and make myself even happier. I am finally back to feeling cool about being a loner ha ha, it's good to be the only person on the planet that knows anything about you.

It's cool that every single person you meet will know something different about you, or feel differently towards you, because the next time you see that particular person you have a special connection just with them. PLUS I'm off to a movie with chloe, and I really love the movies. And Chloe, so this could only lead to wonderful things. PLUS my amazing blue shirt I bought today for TWO DOLLAR, it's beautiful. PLUS I have moose's 21st, work, funny hat cuppa club tomorrow, got paid more than i thought I would, a ticket to Vfest, a fresh head of hair, emma's birthday and out on sunday night, pub crawl next week, almost reunion with the uni gang & an incredible tale of jen's stalkerish acts towards nick, my sister's coming home from dublin in one week, the disciples are down from brisbane in April, I get to re-do an entire room next week and make it my own again, I have a great list of movie club movies that have watching to be done, a book list to get stuck into, new clothes & the impending cooler weather to look forward to.

Regardless of any little issue, things are pretty great & I should stop overthinking everything, and trying to be thoughtful and worry about the future or what will happen in two months, or six, or a year, because there's no way I could control that anyway, even if I attempted to, everything will be different even one week from now.

Life's good.


I want to think someone's beautiful,
That they're so beautiful it's a thrill to be near them.
Fill my stomach with butterflies,
have me floating on air,
Bring something out of me I didn't know was there.
But it's such a torturous thing
That I am not excited by anyone!

Amen Of Montreal!

Rockin' The Casbah

So many people telling me one way
So many people telling me to stay
Never had time to have my mind made up
Caught in a motion that I don't wanna stop

I'm baaack. I feel much better than my two-week-ago self. I feel much more settled & comfortable again, and things are getting back to normal, in the best possible normal way, not the mundane, lonely awkward one. There is so much stuff going on right about now, I am busy all the time and always doing something, and I love it.

Happiest of birthday wishes to Amy & Clare :) two of my most loyal and most hilarious companions.

It's so frustrating wanting to download a song but being completely unable to, Delphic where are you?! Wonderful band, supporting Bloc Party on tour at the moment, and their song Counterpoint is v. cool & listenable.

Monday's the meeting day, where the great ideas we have might actually be able to be put into action, and then it will be upwards from there for the show, all the way to total world (national) domination! cue evil laugh. I also will be donating blood in the afternoon, and trying to go through my cupboard and get rid of some clothes that I rarely wear anyway, as it's try & help out with the fires crisis in any, albeit small, way that you can. My sister will, if all goes to plan, be helping out there in a very very massive way, so it will be good to get involved with.

Watch Sia's film clip for Buttons, it's mesmerizing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uvd814WG2t4

Tess is going to finish Amy's birthday Box, get dolled up and go and have fun with the original gang.

creature fear, hello!

So many foreign worlds
(So relatively fucked)
So ready for us
So ready for us,
The creature fear

The so many territories
Ready to reform
Don't let it form us
Don't let it form us
The creature fear

So did he foil is 'own?
Is he ready to reform?
So many torahs
So many for us
The creature fear

One week on from returning to Europe. The best thing I've ever done easily. What does it have to compare to really?! London, Dover, Calais, Paris, Lauterbrunnen, Florence, Pisa, Rome, Venice, Verona, Salzburg, The Rhine Valley, Edinburgh, Dublin, Berlin, Lisbon, Lagos, Madrid, Barcelona, Amsterdam, Galway. Poodle, Thriller, Act Natural, The Disciples, Your Boyfriend (Turtlebrow), Hostel Pasta, ever interesting hostel roomies, Strawberry Dacuiris, Ghostbusters, Last Christmas, Angel Snow Beast, Snow/Fat Cat, Juke Box, Kareoke, Lady Marmalade, Fat Hobbit.

Too many things, more will have to come later.

I just turned around to look out the window, and it's incredibly spooky. All of the lights must be out over near the bridge, and there is nothing but mist & darkness. Perfect for some sort of Horror movie filmage, or watching. Maybe it's the lack of car, the hot weather, the ill feeling, the no money, the post-holiday blues but I'm not right. Lone Ranger central. Always going to get comfortable and then be stuck. I think I should get used to that, and not be disappointed with people or in the way they've acted, because it's only ever your own fault. I think I'll do a myspace quiz to take my mind off things.

Do you like anyon​e at the momen​t?​
couldn't forget turtlebrow <3

Do you miss anyon​e?​
two people very much.

When is the last time someo​ne of the oppos​ite sex gave you a hug? Who?
a friend's boyfriend today when i saw them in town.

What were you doing​ this morni​ng at 5: 00?
sleeping very soundly.

Who is the last perso​n you were in a car with?​
H baby

Do you know anyon​e named​ Matt?​
loads of people, army boy, cavey, judas...

How late did you stay up last night​ and why?
late enough to watch the end of the Aus Open, poor Fed :(

Are you curre​ntly frust​rated​ with a girl/​boy?​
nope.

Do you fall for peopl​e easil​y?​
not really, no.

How old are you?
20

Be hones​t,​ who has texte​d you today​?​
clare, angel, chloe, dani, wixy

This time last year,​ can you remem​ber who you liked​?​
indeed & it feels like a million years ago.

Do you think​ anyon​e has feeli​ngs for you?
probably not

Do you have feeli​ngs for anyon​e?​
always!

Who was the first​ perso​n you talke​d to today​?​
Mum

Have you ever ridde​n a horse​?​
love it.

Who was the last perso​n you cried​ in front​ of?
whitey!

Are you anyth​ing like you were at this point​ last year?​
I am very different, but probably outwardly still the same.

Does anyon​e call you baby?​
Not anymore

Are you a patie​nt perso​n?​
Not really

Are you tickl​ish?​
Way too much so

Think​ back to the last girl to text you, would​ you kiss them?
On the cheek! Tomorrow at lunch.

Are you upset​ about​ anyth​ing?​
I am indeed.

When is your birth​day?​
I'll be 21 on August 29th

What are you liste​ning to?
Sufjan Stevens- Chicago

Any plans​ for tomor​row?​
Lunch with clare at 1pm, and probably a lot of pottering around

Is there​ a girl who knows​ pretty​ much every​thing​ about​ you?
yeah well apart from my mother & sister, there's two other ladies that know a bit.

What do you hear?​
now I hear Chris Martin singing which is calming me and an Age video about Nadal's victory.

Where​ are you?
in the study

Is there​ anyon​e that alway​s makes​ you smile​ when you talk to them?
definitely.

Do you have a secre​t that you'​ve never​ told anyon​e?​
definitely.

Do you like your life as of now?
yeaaah..

Do you drink​ coffe​e?​
only, always!

Are you tanne​d?​
No, I most certainly am not

Ever made someo​ne cry?
unfortunately

Would​ you be able to date someo​ne who doesn​'​ t make you laugh​?​
Hellll no.

What are you doing​ at 3:​00pm tomor​row?​
No idea!

Do you play video​ games​?​
If only

Do you plan on movin​g in the next year?​
Probably not, I have more important things to save for & to concentrate on at the moment.

Would​ you ever consi​der pierc​ing your lip?
I doubt that

Today​,​ would​ you rathe​r go back a week or go forwa​rd a week?​
Probably forward many weeks

What'​ s your favor​ite seaso​n?​
Spring.


That wasn't really as interesting as I had hoped, this huge big epic trip of Europe is done now. Home I am, very happy to be so, however before I left I was very settled and now I feel completely the opposite. Uni will be brilliant, and the Radio show and hopefully the promotions thing will kick start something exciting & different. I am going to accept being a lone ranger and deal with it, by floating around, having fun & having a real crack at things. I have a feeling this year will be very interesting, and I think it could be the most fun & the most successful one yet. Go 2009!

Joke of the day, 3rd Feb, 2009:

Q: What do you call two men hanging from a window?
A: Curt and Rod.

Not even funny?

Failblog's still funny.

Wheelchair Access fail INDEED, Just try & use the metro/Tube in Europe, bizarre amounts of stairs...



High Five Fail: Angel knows how this feels. Sorry Ang.


This is just really funny & creepy:


Tess is going to read Harry Potter & drink Mint Green Tea in bed. x

ihola!

Greetings from Lagos.

Dublin seems so very long ago, so the thought of blogging about things i've done seems ludacris! So I will wait until home. This trip has been just great, in terms of learning about myself and how I work and what I am like etc. I am proud to be the person I am, I feel mature and capable and happy in my own skin which is very cool. There have been moments, but it is done now and I feel good about being here, and good about going home which is a nice balance to have.

We are on another bus trip to Lisbon today which will be nothing compared to the one we had to Lagos (Lagos???) which was long and funny and felt like groundhog day 25 times over. It is friday morning here and monday morning we do another flight, and it is back to London. I liked London a lot so it will be nice to be there again, albeit for just a day. Stay with Alison and Ryan, and Tuesday it is back home to Aus. How strange that such an epic trip that we were counting down for and so excited for is over, well almost. At least it has been everything we expected, plus great new friends, a new outlook, a fresh perspective, the realisation you are not the whole world, letting go a bit, funny funny funny funny stories and a whole array of new boyfriends haha including Turtlebrow.

Home will be awesome, but just staying at home haha not leaving for a while. It will be too comfortable, and too clean and too refreshing.

Tdog Teabag Topdeck Tess out!